Stress

Just came back from a 5km run around the estate. Feeling really shag lol, and I feel down too. Guess the school stress is getting to me, quite blatantly seen from how easily I explode nowadays. Somehow I think that my struggle for academic excellence and at the same time building up my physique is kinda paradoxical, as in I want to be happy with life but I end up over-exerting myself all the time? I thought good grades were supposed to make us happy and contented but when you look at chao muggers like zenn chua you can see that whoa, that muggerish life is not the way to go lol. But they get all the good breaks.
There's physics and chinese CCTs coming up in a fortnight and I'm still stoning, trying to destress after maths CCT. Lol, I will end up pushing myself sooner or later because SS project is gonna be due soon and RE is due round the corner too. Screw the stupid Raffles Programme.
Athletics-wise, I think I've really concentrated a lot on my upper body, I can already see how disproportionate my body is. My arm muscles have really grown but my legs remain puny and insignificant. Oh well, all in the name of canoeing.
Increased Lat weight by another 1o lbs, did till muscle failure and now my back aches like some pundat lol. Bicep curls were not to be neglected either, increased by 2.5 lbs and I think I'm gonna start hardcore training of chest soon so that I can wear spandex next year. Just joking.
It's really high time I started bulking up, I haven't hit the 60 kg mark and lol my metabolism is just to high to make significant weight gains. Of course, I intend to do this without the help of supplements or protein powder cos they're only for noobs and steroids are a NO-GO. The hallmark of a true canoeist is to become a muscle mama without screwing up your body and of course his fertility (which creatine has been reputedly been known to cause).
Oh and I think I really must say this: there's a certain someone in my class who's really been such a jerk. When he accidentally bumps into someone, he wants that person to apologise. I mean how screwed up is that? Not that we want to be bigoted but he has just proven us right all the time that he is one big asshole. You tell us that you're anti-establishment and you suck up to teachers? You're part of the minority and you try to push your weight around... Stupid jackass. Go reflect on why the entire class thinks you're a second JT... and lol! yesterday was racial harmony day... big joke.
Argh, I'm aching everywhere now lol. Going to do something useful now...